Hello Friends its the end of day 65 sober, I am currently in bed and usually this is the time I reflect on myself. Forgiving myself is probably the hardest part of my recovery. I know I cant go back and prevent the tears, fears, anger, loss of people time. The court dates, the keying of the car, the drunken threats. The heartbreaks, the drunken fights, the lying, the deceitfulness, the not caring, the selfishness, the un-ability to see love and also forgiveness for my parents.
I came across this video a moment ago, that opened my inner being in understanding what forgiveness means: Giving up hope that the past could be any different. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for Oprah, my healing tears and for becoming self aware.
Stay connect with love, Adolfo