Today is still day 1o sober. Since i started this sober journey i always pride myself for not craving the booze but today i realize my cravings are coming in different forms. I know in my heart that i don’t want to drink again so my alcoholic disorder is coming out in bits of depression. I feel really good for a few days then the fourth day comes and i get a whole day of this weird depression were i do not feel anything but Brief moments of sadness. Nothing i do cheers me up. I do not want to do anything just sleep. I know i wont drink ever but my mind is trying somehow to get me to. Addiction is really hard to understand unless you are an addict.
Ive also started to crave sweets, more than usually i feel myself eating more and more. I have to watch how my infected mind is acting out in different ways. Usually addictions switches to another, well in my case does. Cocaine to booze so i have to be very aware of everything i do. Addiction is work and i am up for the challenge. Its by far the hardest thing to over come but i know its possible to live with it and not drink. I know its get better and i cant wait to be on the other side of this but it takes one day at a time
Stay connect with love, Adolfo