DAY 37 Sober: Wrote my first Adult Poem “I wonder”

I wonder

I wonder if he will ever know the pain he caused

When he decided to let go.

I wonder if he stays up at night starring at the empty side of the bed.

Maybe he’s getting head.

I wonder if he notice the missing echo of my laughter.

Probably on a different chapter.

I wonder when he knew I was not worth fighting for.

Sure it was the Liquor store.

I wonder if he will forget they way I smell and taste.

Already replaced.

I wonder if he misses my touch.

If so Not much.

 

 

 

I wonder if I will ever let go.

Need to let it flow.

I wonder if I will ever stop looking at the empty side of the bed.

Kind of what I dread.

I wonder when I will stop hearing his laughter and voice.

I need to make that choice.

I wonder when I will stop fighting.

The decision needs to be inviting.

I wonder if ill forget the way he smells and taste.

Needs to be erased.

I wonder when I will stop craving his touch.

A bit too much.

 

 

 

I wonder if we both will see love in someone else eyes.

I wonder if we will ever see blue skies.

I wonder if we will ever travel down the same road.

I wonder if it will be as cold.

I wonder if we will be untied from the fatal past.

I wonder if love will always be an overcast.

 

 

Adolfo Vasquez