This is my first blog and its kinda scary. For the past five years I have been a really shitty Adolfo Due to my mental disorder called Alcoholism. With this disorder iv hurt everyone around me, crash cars, key cars, lie, steal, blackouts, turn into a monster. I Believe its called ism because it Inside Self & Mind…the real struggle will start now when iam not treating my alcoholism with alcohol. My mind will turn on me. I need to be aware of the mental voice that sounds like me. That knows what to say to me to get me to the bar. That is the ism! Iv been in and out of sober livings, had a bunch of relapses, lost some amazing friends and a boyfriend. I really want to beat this or learn how to be aware of my mind. I would also like to learn from others on how they live a sober life in there 20′s. My body and mind are already feeling the long term abuse. I am Excited, scared, lonely but also feeling a bit free.