Primetime AA changed my Life

In January of this year I walked into Primetime AA and heard this message that change my life and it planted the seed of change.   This AA format is based on Ego, Alcoholism, and self.  Hope this helps others on their journey in sobriety 

“And it happen just like that because The EGO Accepted the Truth, instead of admitting” Astrid Howe

DAY 18 Sober: Nightmare Withdrawals?

Hello Friends, 18 day sober and going strong, Today has been a great day. Ended my second job today which is such an amazing thing now it allows more writing and gives me time to focus on my long term goals. I am currently seating in a korean cafe that has the best coffee, tons of natural light and art.  The last few days Ive been so Exhausted from work, writing Sober is the new Black and trying to have a life. Ive been taking 3hr naps during the afternoon lately and i’ve been having intense nightmares that either wake me up or when i wake up i am in a funk that consist of deep sadness that last anywhere from 1 hr to 3 hrs. The dreams usually involves people I know suddenly passing away or my ex Flaunting a new love in front of me. I know its a dream but it so real that I wake up still feeling that same exact pain that I felt in the dream.  The first week of getting sober I would wake up trying to catch my breath. I wonder if these are withdrawals

 

So I did some research on getting sober and nightmares .. Nightmares are a very common symptom in Sobriety, they suggest low brain activity the last hour before sleep. No computer usage which is hard because I prefer to sleep with my lab top over anything even men! I am more creative at night and get most of ideas for Sober is the Black and I also write nonfiction stories that always comes alive at night. So its a bit of a dilemma but over all without health there is no writing so ill need to find a healthy medium. I also love dark film and Tv shows. From Gasper Noe to John Waters my nonfiction is inspired by them.

 

Also i heard Alcohol Destroys Vitamin D so maybe i need to start taking a multi vitamin that always push off until i get sick. I am sure this will pass in time. Thank you all for continuing this journey with me. I will be video blogging tonight.. I might post it tomorrow or tonight. Everybody be safe! Thank you universe for the strength to carry on into  my new normal!

DAY 18 Sober: Reflecting

Hello Friends Today is my 18-day sober and I am feeling really good. I’ve been writing and keeping my thoughts in check. I wake up now still sleepy but excited for the day! Alcoholism is something I struggled with since my early 20’s. My addiction progress from a few drunken arguments and endless amounts of puking into Crashing cars and Arrest, I started to realize that alcoholism isn’t in the booze it centers in the mind of the addict. It cant go away but I believe we can become self aware and the disorder can loose its power and we can gain control over are minds and body. The disorder also lives in the body and craves the booze and creates the withdrawals, the mind for me is where my Alcoholism is most effective.

 

 Alcoholism kills everything alive and Preserves everything that is dead in my life. It stunts my growth and kept me from living a joyful life but the beauty is that I am aware of it now.  I have to make the right choices and surround myself with the positive energy.  As I get closer to my 30days I get filled with gratitude that I was able to get to this moment alive and without seriously injuring someone. I know that if I continue to stay on the sober path the universe will open doors for me. Addiction is very hard but it doesn’t matter how low your bottom is or how bad your story is you can always create a new one.

Thank you again for reading Sober is the new Black!

Stay connect with love, Adolfo