Hello.. Today is day 12 sober. Almost two weeks sober and i am still going! I brought maggie home and found the perfect spot for her. My new apartment is looking and feeling more like home everyday. My mind has been really great and i’ve been able to shut down the Alcoholism thoughts. My disorder has know power over my awareness!!!!! and i am so grateful for that. I just have to remind myself that Alcoholism is a living breathing ISM ( Inside Self & Mind) that centers in my brain not it the Alcohol, It also lives in my body making me crave the booze. The body ISM is easy to brush off times but The ISM in your mind is sneaky and will find it way to surface with Negative thoughts. When you are not treating your Alcoholism with its MEDS Alcohol, you still have the disorder but it now becomes untreated Alcoholism and thats when the real work starts. When i started this blog i did not expected all the love and support from people. I am so grateful.
Ive been watching and listening to Sia New Music video, I might be wrong but i feel like its about Alcoholism and the little girl in the video ( Maddie Ziegler) is a young Sia growing up in a bad childhood eventually turning to booze to help her with her past. This video mirrors my life so much. Young Sia (Maddie Ziegler) Despite her surroundings still fights and shines her talent and beauty. Sia has always been an inspiration with her one of a kind voice and her amazing lyrics. The first time I seen her live was at Coachella fest in 2007, she blew my mind and like always made me cry. Sia has been with me through the ups and downs of my past. Sia Chandelier lyrics resonate with my soul
Can’t feel anything, when will I Learn
I push it down, push it down1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
Throw ’em back, till I lose count
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
And I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight
Sun is up, I’m a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Here comes the shame, here comes the shame
This Song came out around the same time I Decided to get sober, I feel like Sia always knows what i am going through at the time. Heres the video enjoy.
Sober Is The New Black 
In our thoughts and prayers!
Congrats on Day 12!!!!!!! You can do it!!