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DAY 103 Sober: An Old Fashion Floozy
Hello Friends, today is day 103 sober and it’s been a long day but a sober day that means I am dealing with life how life is meant to feel. I Work in Venice CA and its beautiful place a few minutes away from the beach, everything is laid back and so green, a big difference then Downtown Los Angeles. I would not mind living on the Westside but I do love the city a bit more.
August has passed and it brought me so many gifts, old friends, new friends, new goals and a new logo for Sober is the New Black. Life is pretty amazing sober, never thought those words would match with a deep feeling in me but it does. Sober is me. I have been healing some of the issue I carried from my childhood into an adult. My babysitter molesting me is something I never spoke about, one person new and that was Vince. I had know no one to tell growing up my parents were battling addiction and so I had to cope on my own. My childhood was like one horrible experience after another. My Molestation happened a few times. I had to be around 3years old but remember most of it; he had to be in high school. I wasn’t getting any attention from my parents, and this guy was giving hugs and kisses so I think I felt loved. It did escalate into other stuff I remember at that age looking forward to it because the sensation felt good. I think being molested was a gateway into being sexually active very young and very aggressive about it. Not really taking care of my body, I’ve been very blessed I never end up with a life threating STD. I would seek love in men and would also seek validation I never received growing up.
I realize now whatever I was searching for in men could only be found in me. I was always looking outside myself to fill the inside, well no more. Everything I need is already in me or can be created by me only. This is a poem written in a past tense. I am no longer this but this was my past that got me here today and I don’t feel ashamed one bit because i am not my mistakes. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for the respect I have for my body now, for sobriety, for real love, for writing, and for this blog so I can be honest about my moral inventory and know that my mistakes are blessing because they are growth opportunities.
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DAY 103 Sober: Baby Steps Poem
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Adolfo Vasquez
DAY 102 Sober: Creating a new Path
Hello friends today is day 102 sober, It’s been a great day. I am now working two jobs that I am very grateful for. I know I will have to get use to not having any days off. It will last for a few months so I just have to buckle up. Writing is a passion I love doing. I have always written stories and poems growing up. When my addiction got really bad I slowed down quite a bit. I would write in bars with a whiskey. I usually end up getting lost in the story or never finish. When I read them back, it just seemed like empty words without passion. I used to think I needed to be under the influence to create but I was so wrong. My writings have meaning now that I have a clear mind. What I create make sense and I have a game plan to execute what I am trying to say. A lot of artist create masterpieces on drugs or booze, for me it is the opposite.
I am now working on a book and even with a sober mind there are challenges. Not enough time in the day is something I am struggling with due to working two jobs but I am pushing through. So for the next few months ill be writing, rewriting, scraping, writing etc. I do have a great chunk done and I know it will be amazing, I don’t want to say to much about it expect I hope it inspires others to follow their passion.
The road you’ve walked or the Circumstance you are currently in are not a deciding factor on the new road you can create now. Start building a new path in the opposite direction. On that new path plant seeds of change and see your surrounding blossom. Everything around you will start looking brighter and the road will be tuff at first, you might even need to pull out weeds and push through bushes and knock down trees but that work will pay off and that road will lead you into a new life. Anything is possible if you heal from within and work towards that goal. Don’t let anyone tell you any different. You are not the surroundings you are currently in, that’s just a waiting room into greatness. It is not easy and I have fallen down a million times and I will fall again I just have to get back up even when it’s easy to lay down. This book will be done period. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for my fingers, for my eyes, for my brothers, for the freedom sobriety has given me, and for my writing that fills my life with purpose.
Natasha Bedingfield Unwritten is such a great such. Today is were your book begins the future is still unwritten
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DAY 101 Sober: Surrender poem
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DAY 101 Sober: keep walking with me
Hello friends today is day 101 sober, I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday. Yesterday I woke up not really having any plans, so everything that happen was spur of the moment. It was perfection. My family came out from Palm Springs we had an amazing dinner. My brother moved out here, so he will be staying with me for a while. I am excited to have my younger brother out here, I was a bit nervous before hand, I wasn’t sure if it would work but seeing how excited he was really made me joyful. His situation back home wasn’t ideal so hopefully he can seize this opportunity from something great. We both have gone through the same childhood past so I understand his way of thinking so hopefully I can inspire him to finding himself. No booze and No drugs in my home. Those two rules don’t get a second chance if broken. He understands my sobriety, which I am grateful.
Before my family came out, I went shopping with a great friend. This friend seen me at my worst and has been there as much as he could have. I am very grateful for him. I know he is proud and that makes me feel good. We laugh and talk, well I am a talker he is more of a listener. I can rabble for hours straight. Every time we hangout out its really fun and I have a great time. Its like my friends and family are getting to know the real me, the one that’s always been scared to come out, a better me. I got home just in an enough time to clean my apartment; I need to be better at cleaning especially now that my brother is here.
So today I feel blissful, very grateful for my sober mind. It took some work to get me to 101. There is always going to be growth and stuff to work on. I am slowing down so I can take moments to enjoy my surroundings more. All my needs are met and then some. Going back to yesterday, it felt like winning some sort of an award that took a lot of hard work. 100 days sober was a big deal and I am glad I took time to feel that in my heart. Today my brother and I will be bowling, it’s his first day living in LA and I want to show him how incredible this city is. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for life.
VV Brown Children is a perfect song, Darkness falls and kills the light, don’t surrender, be alright. Oh if I had my way, I would through everything away and draw it up again, keep walking with me.
DAY 100 Sober: Rocket Poem
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100 days of Sober
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Sober is the New Black Thoughts
“Tonight will be the last night i’ll be in my double digits in my lifetime.#99dayssober“
Adolfo Vasquez
Sober is the New Black
DAY 99 Sober: MY Inner Ninja
Hello friends today is day 99 sober, it’s the eve of my 100 days sober. Kind of feels like my own little Christmas. Today I only allow bliss nothing is going to take that away. Not even the mean clients at work or the stresses of life. Today I’ve been in tears most of the day because I know how much healing had to be put into getting here. How much work, tears, surrendering, being honest, accepting, dealing, creating love for me, coping with life, and doing it all without that one thing that was a constant friend, that booze. More like a hidden enemy. It was the only thing that was consent in my life but also killed everything good in my life. It feels good be rid of that life thief, money grabber, band aid over a gaping whole in my soul.
99 days for me is a huge thing and with everyday that passes gratefulness is what I feel. There are millions of people who never get to this point, and some might have even passed away from this battle. There are no words to describe how determine I am to continue this journey of finding me and now that I am finding me I can start creating my future. I have some stuff on the horizon that blows my mind and hopefully inspires others to start creating in their life. So tonight I just want to pay respects to anyone who passed away from addiction, there battle lives on in my heart and it reminds me to also do my work and stay focus. Their deaths are not in vain. I wish I can find a cure, I really do but I cant and will not. Only thing I can do is to create with in me so I can inspire. I want to also be inspired by others. I don’t ever want to have all the answers because once I think I know it all than I stop growing and evolving. I just want to be a better me tomorrow than I am today. I am working towards sober from booze, sober from past, sober from ego, sober from anything and everything that is barrier from reaching my full potential. Sober is the new black. There are no words for the love I feel for you, who continues to take time out of your life to stay on this journey with me, and check in.
This song from Classified and David Myles Inner Ninja is exactly me in this moment, nothing going to stop me now. Going to go hard because i am long overdue.
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