Sober is the New Black
Hello friends today is day 101 sober, I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday. Yesterday I woke up not really having any plans, so everything that happen was spur of the moment. It was perfection. My family came out from Palm Springs we had an amazing dinner. My brother moved out here, so he will be staying with me for a while. I am excited to have my younger brother out here, I was a bit nervous before hand, I wasn’t sure if it would work but seeing how excited he was really made me joyful. His situation back home wasn’t ideal so hopefully he can seize this opportunity from something great. We both have gone through the same childhood past so I understand his way of thinking so hopefully I can inspire him to finding himself. No booze and No drugs in my home. Those two rules don’t get a second chance if broken. He understands my sobriety, which I am grateful.
Before my family came out, I went shopping with a great friend. This friend seen me at my worst and has been there as much as he could have. I am very grateful for him. I know he is proud and that makes me feel good. We laugh and talk, well I am a talker he is more of a listener. I can rabble for hours straight. Every time we hangout out its really fun and I have a great time. Its like my friends and family are getting to know the real me, the one that’s always been scared to come out, a better me. I got home just in an enough time to clean my apartment; I need to be better at cleaning especially now that my brother is here.
So today I feel blissful, very grateful for my sober mind. It took some work to get me to 101. There is always going to be growth and stuff to work on. I am slowing down so I can take moments to enjoy my surroundings more. All my needs are met and then some. Going back to yesterday, it felt like winning some sort of an award that took a lot of hard work. 100 days sober was a big deal and I am glad I took time to feel that in my heart. Today my brother and I will be bowling, it’s his first day living in LA and I want to show him how incredible this city is. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for life.
VV Brown Children is a perfect song, Darkness falls and kills the light, don’t surrender, be alright. Oh if I had my way, I would through everything away and draw it up again, keep walking with me.