Hello Friends. Today is day 144 sober. Lately I’ve been learning how to accept life’s decisions. Everything happens for a reason and I have to accept the universe plans even if it hurts. Yes pain is part of life and so is heart breaks, I just have to stay focus on my healing. In the past when life wasn’t going as plan I would give up and give in to coping substances but now I am allowing myself to endure pain and learn how to work through it with a clean mind and body. I don’t want an ounce of that liquid poison. I crave other things like healing, writing and finding a purposeful day. Yes my heart might be broken but it’s a sober heart and it’s grieving in a healthy way without booze. Whether its happiness or sadness, it’s great to know I am capable of feeling life without booze.
I’ve been working like crazy and have stop my daily posts on Sober is the New Black. I will get back to my daily entries once this work season is over. I also have some projects in the works but I had to pause them for the moment. My goal is to take off 3 months of work at the end of this year so I can finish my book I’ve been creating. I am adding another element to it and I am very excited. It needs to be perfect and I need to take my time so it can be right. I am aware of how blessed I am to be able to take 3 months off of work and I don’t want to take it for granted. In the past I would spend my time off wasting tons of money on hotels, booze and partying after the work season. This time I want to invest my time and money on my long-term goals and dreams. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for life, family, friends, for my strength to endure life’s blues and for my sobriety that keeps me alive.
Hello friends today is day 62 sober, I am sitting in Koreatown in this amazing peaceful café that has such a beautiful surrounding. Today is my first Thursday off of work in awhile. I slept in pretty late, it felt so good to let my body choose when its ready to wake. I woke up so happy, my usual routine when I first wake is to turn to my side and grab my phone, and check my blog Sober is the New Black than Facebook. It feels so great seeing the love from others and it warms my day. Today my plan is to finish my long read that consist of my childhood and teen years. Yesterday I talked to most of my family and they are so supportive in my journey in sobriety, Very grateful for their love. When i get in the shower I meet with my higher-power and i cleanse yesterdays fears and worries. Today is a fresh start with endless possibilities, no matter that state of mind I am currently in or was I control my mind and thoughts, good ones inn, bad ones out. Not going to be a prisoner of yesterdays actions but a pioneer of today moments! This is a short post but my goal is to have my childhood and teen years up later today so I have to prepare my mind and prepare to weep for that 3 year old Adolfo. Leaving with a song that is so inspiring, I am grateful for life, being Sober, and for everybody who is in recovery standing with me in this battle, Sober from past, sober from ego, sober from pain, sober from fear, sober from Booze
Skyscraper From Demi Lovato is for Alcohol that has taken it all away.
DAY 1 Sober, I am not scared anymore.. The pain of staying the same is worst then the pain it takes to change! I am missing out on wonderful experiences and love.. My body is an amazing temple that needs to be treated that way … Everything that was once thriving and amazing was destroy by ALCOHOL. I am now left, broken, lonely, in mental and physical pain, sad, guilty, ashamed… I want to be free from this battle, free from my past, free to live, love, be in love.. Some of my greatest teachers in life have been some of the hardest moments.. There is a man who i lost because of this battle. The universe brought him into my life, This man had the courage to fight for me when i didn’t even have arms to fight. With his love i was able to grow arms to fight this battle. I believe the universe took him away so now i can fight this battle… I am the only one who can win this battle. What seems like an impossible fight of ADDICTION….. Addiction is scary, what seems endless, and so this is my journey of staying sober, the ups and downs, tears and joys, living the LA life sober and why is it i want to abuse myself and countless others who are in my life…I hope you join me on this Life mission to finding my truth and becoming whole not perfect but whole for the moment. Fear has always stopped me from living and my mind has an infection that needs to be healed that was condition from a dark past. I want to shine a spotlight on Addiction and hopefully i can help a person who might be struggling as i do on a daily basis. This will Be my daily blog that will consist of daily updates and weekly videos and hopefully one day for me SOBER IS THE NEW BLACK!