This poem is my story!Heartbreak opens onto the sunriseFor even breaking is openingAnd I am brokenI’m openBroken to the new light without pushing inOpen to the possibilities within, pushing outSee the love shine in through my cracks?See the light shine out through me?I am brokenI am openI am broken openSee the love light shining through meShining through my cracksThrough the gapsMy spirit takes journeyMy spirit takes flightCould not have risen otherwiseAnd I am not runningI’m choosingRunning is not a choice from the breakingBreaking is freeingBroken is freedomI am not brokenI’m free.~ Spoken by Alike (Adepero Oduye)Written by Dee Rees
Hello Friends, Today is my 15-day sober and I feel really good. Last night I went over to friend home, beer, wine and champagne was all around and I felt fine. No cravings but I already know if start having those kind of feelings I have to leave. I don’t want to be self-abusive and torture myself for a game night!
Surrendering is a big part of getting sober the last few attempts at trying to stay sober was not successful because I thought I can do it on my own by not drinking but you have to surrender to a higher power to help deal with your issues and help guide you. Whatever you consider higher power in your life…For the past 3 years I really wanted to be done with drinking I prayed, hoped, kept working and trying, believed in my heart that I was done but I did not see a clear path but I knew in my heart that I wanted to live an amazing life. I had to hit rock bottom so all I had was my higher power and myself. On May 24 I saw a clear path and surrendered it all.
The universe has plans for every human on this planet. When you work as hard, done as much as you can, strive, hope, given, Tried, bargain, pleaded, just SURRENDER. When you have done all you can do and there is nothing left for you to do! Give it up to the universe and let it become a part of the flow of the universe. I wanted to be sober so bad and tried everything! Everything! So on may 24 I surrendered it to the universe and in that second it clicked Sober is new the black. The universe has bigger dreams for us then we can dream on are own. The universe carved a clear path for me. Once I accepted the truth and surrender it I started to write and this blog was born. I feel in my soul and bones this blog is a catalyst for something great in my life that I might be unaware now. I just have to be sober, live in my truth, believe in high power that I understand it to be and surrender to it.
Stay connect with love, Adolfo