Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
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Writings from the night before
DAY 101 Sober: keep walking with me
Hello friends today is day 101 sober, I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday. Yesterday I woke up not really having any plans, so everything that happen was spur of the moment. It was perfection. My family came out from Palm Springs we had an amazing dinner. My brother moved out here, so he will be staying with me for a while. I am excited to have my younger brother out here, I was a bit nervous before hand, I wasn’t sure if it would work but seeing how excited he was really made me joyful. His situation back home wasn’t ideal so hopefully he can seize this opportunity from something great. We both have gone through the same childhood past so I understand his way of thinking so hopefully I can inspire him to finding himself. No booze and No drugs in my home. Those two rules don’t get a second chance if broken. He understands my sobriety, which I am grateful.
Before my family came out, I went shopping with a great friend. This friend seen me at my worst and has been there as much as he could have. I am very grateful for him. I know he is proud and that makes me feel good. We laugh and talk, well I am a talker he is more of a listener. I can rabble for hours straight. Every time we hangout out its really fun and I have a great time. Its like my friends and family are getting to know the real me, the one that’s always been scared to come out, a better me. I got home just in an enough time to clean my apartment; I need to be better at cleaning especially now that my brother is here.
So today I feel blissful, very grateful for my sober mind. It took some work to get me to 101. There is always going to be growth and stuff to work on. I am slowing down so I can take moments to enjoy my surroundings more. All my needs are met and then some. Going back to yesterday, it felt like winning some sort of an award that took a lot of hard work. 100 days sober was a big deal and I am glad I took time to feel that in my heart. Today my brother and I will be bowling, it’s his first day living in LA and I want to show him how incredible this city is. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for life.
VV Brown Children is a perfect song, Darkness falls and kills the light, don’t surrender, be alright. Oh if I had my way, I would through everything away and draw it up again, keep walking with me.
DAY 100 Sober: Rocket Poem
Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
100 days of Sober
Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
DAY 99 Sober: MY Inner Ninja
Hello friends today is day 99 sober, it’s the eve of my 100 days sober. Kind of feels like my own little Christmas. Today I only allow bliss nothing is going to take that away. Not even the mean clients at work or the stresses of life. Today I’ve been in tears most of the day because I know how much healing had to be put into getting here. How much work, tears, surrendering, being honest, accepting, dealing, creating love for me, coping with life, and doing it all without that one thing that was a constant friend, that booze. More like a hidden enemy. It was the only thing that was consent in my life but also killed everything good in my life. It feels good be rid of that life thief, money grabber, band aid over a gaping whole in my soul.
99 days for me is a huge thing and with everyday that passes gratefulness is what I feel. There are millions of people who never get to this point, and some might have even passed away from this battle. There are no words to describe how determine I am to continue this journey of finding me and now that I am finding me I can start creating my future. I have some stuff on the horizon that blows my mind and hopefully inspires others to start creating in their life. So tonight I just want to pay respects to anyone who passed away from addiction, there battle lives on in my heart and it reminds me to also do my work and stay focus. Their deaths are not in vain. I wish I can find a cure, I really do but I cant and will not. Only thing I can do is to create with in me so I can inspire. I want to also be inspired by others. I don’t ever want to have all the answers because once I think I know it all than I stop growing and evolving. I just want to be a better me tomorrow than I am today. I am working towards sober from booze, sober from past, sober from ego, sober from anything and everything that is barrier from reaching my full potential. Sober is the new black. There are no words for the love I feel for you, who continues to take time out of your life to stay on this journey with me, and check in.
This song from Classified and David Myles Inner Ninja is exactly me in this moment, nothing going to stop me now. Going to go hard because i am long overdue.
DAY 99 Sober: Flow of life Poem
Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
DAY 98 Sober: Forgiving my parents Oprah Way
Hello friends, its day 98 sober. It’s has been a busy day but feeling very grateful for this sober mind that helps me get through the day. Around this time in the past I would be past out drunk, so glad I have more hours in my day to create from within. I have started working my second job, I am so grateful for it. The hours, pay and environment are great. It’s a type of job with tons of deadlines and pressure but I’ve done it for years and use to it. The difference this year is I am sober. In the past it was ok to have a drink and work, maybe even a bottle of wine or some Macallan 12. Now it will be a total different experience. Some Pellegrino or coffee will do.I don’t miss the feeling or even the taste of booze; the only thing I miss is hanging out, the social aspect, meeting new peeps. Right now I just don’t have the time to be out, I have a few things in the works for Sober is the New Black. I do miss the bar food, I am a huge foodie.
On my way to this café in Koreatown I was looking out the window and seen this guy who appeared to be homeless stumbling around with a beer bottle in his hand, this disorder is real and I have to always be aware of the mind disorder. I felt empathy because the only thing that separates me from him is my sobriety. I am glad I am aware of what will happen if I pick up again. I am one drink away from death so I can’t have a next drink.
Today I spoke to my real mom on the phone and for the first time, I had no anger for her or hate. I felt love, it was weird because in the past I would be really annoyed or short temper when see called. I am learning how to forgive her and not really for her but for me. I need to happy and I wont if I carry hate for my parents. Forgiveness takes time. Not only do I want to forgive them I want a relationship. I want them to know me and I now them, If they want. My mom was a bit upset when I started this blog but now she understand this blog wasn’t about her it was about me healing. No matter how many times I was abused by my parents I still long for a friendship. My parents are also addicts so going through my addiction has brought me a deep understanding of my parents. My mom isn’t in the best place but I know she is working for a better tomorrow. I still have a bit of fear when I see my dad, when I see him I get nervous and say only a few words. It will take some more work but I would like to be friends with my father. I am also realizing I don’t really need parents in my life. Everything I need is in me; I just got to create love, joy, security, passion and growth. I can create friendships with others by being the best me and attracting that in my life. I just hope my parents find the serenity I do in this moment. Sober is the new Black.
I have to share this video from Oprah Winfrey again it Change the way I forgive, so powerful and i hope it helps
Stay connect with love, Adolfo Vasquez
DAY 98 Sober: Rich in soul poem
Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
DAY 97 Sober: Me the Co Creator of My Life
Hello friends, today is day 97 sober it has been amazing. Its getting close to 100 days of sober (hint, hint). As I get deeper into being sober, I am realizing sobriety cant fix everything in life but it helps to deal with life. Sobriety for me is dealing with life with what I got. I have to make sure my mind is capable of healing on its own without substance. Life will get hard, people close to me will pass, I will fall down, get heart broken and maybe even make huge errors that are lessons to be learn. But I am SOBER and that my friend will help me see the lessons I need to learn. Help me go inside and fix my wounds. Cope with people passing or even me getting sick. Growing up I was never taught how to cope with the world and my feelings. I am so bless, to be alive to see the stuff that needs to be tuned up. I am 28 years old and sober. I know they say take it one day at a time but my dream are no longer filled with milestones of money, my dreams are me receiving a cake from my home group for 30 years sober. That my friend is possible but the strength it takes to achieve that and the lessons to get there are unimaginable. I want to always inspire people from within themselves. Everybody matters, take my ego out and I am him or her.
I just have to stay connected with my higher power and me the co creator of life. Most of the time when I write these post I start to cry because I now how much tears, pain and work it took me to get here, in this moment, I have to stay grateful and Clear minded. Every moment sober is a gift, The moment on stage winning an Oscar will be the same as when I stop and look at a rose from a garden, both took the same work and effort to be sober for that moment to happen so both are equal. People always talk about a pink cloud but I broaden my pink cloud to allow me to be human because even the worse day sober is a pink cloud because I am feeling life how a human should. For me it all comes down to my mind and being positive. It doesn’t happen over night. Its like a skill you have to work to become great, like a muscle the more you use it the stronger it gets. So even hardest moments feels like breeze. Sober is the New Black. I am grateful for people with more days than me who create a path of wisdom to help me become wise. For people with less days Than me who inspire me to inspire them. For the wisdom I gain in the past 97 days sober that helps me create from within. For all the online support and for people who I stare at daily who are seeing me blossom from the Adolfo that’s always been afraid into only brave.
Stay connect with love Adolfo Vasquez
Demi Lovato Skyscraper, Life can get so bad but i will standing on my feet tall like a Sober Skyscraper
DAY 97 Sober: “Endless Possibility” Poem
Sober is the New Black
Adolfo Vasquez
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