Walking steady up my parents path cold and full of thorns.
Walked it my whole life full of misery and trauma.
Need a new path.
A different route.
Push through bushes.
creating a new path.
Bushes made from infected past.
Feeling pain and loneliness
from the infected bushes.
Must continue, must push through
hurt, pain and guilt.
Making a path for me.
Tears are flowing
I hold on tight.
No path in site
Bushes turn into a path.
Start to see the world from a different angle.
Start to see the world from a higher place.
Parent’s path no longer in site.
Air smells sweet.
Pioneer to my new path.
Lets plant some roses
filled with courage, love and joy.
Created a new path for my kids.
See my kids pioneer their path.
A different route.
STAY CONNECT WITH LOVE, ADOLFO
Hello friend’s day 47 sober has arrived and I am feeling positive! Today I start a workout routine; I am pretty active now days but I don’t have a solid routine. I want a whole mind body and soul shift. AA is a program for my recovery form Alcohol-ism (Inside Self & Mind) and I have started a life program which involves Reading and listening to spiritual teachers. Looking inward so I can find out what caused my issues, if I don’t find the cause (root) of my issues than it would surface in another areas of my life. Getting in touch with my emotions and learning how to feel and endure pain. Overcoming my fears and letting go. Getting to know my higher power and loving myself!
Everything has changed in my life since I got sober, even the way I cry. Its going to be hard to explain but ill try my best. When I get sad a thought surfaces that cause the feeling of sadness than the thought leaves with the sadness and once that leaves my body just starts crying without me blinking or trying or thinking it just starts. It only last for a few moments and when it ends. I am happy again without those past feelings of sadness. My body is meant to grieve and move on. Before I would harper on the sadness causing pain while I cry and sitting with it, crying for hours. Now it just flows naturally without trying. It happened in public a few times I was kind of shocked the first time. I did not try and stop the tears they eventually stop on their own. Maybe Its because I am becoming self aware and its teaching me the right way to grieve. Crying is a great tool for me to relieve my mind and soul; it’s like a form of detoxing. I still have a long way to go but I know I am on the right path because I feel the universe presence at all times! I am grateful for this blog Sober is the New Black and for my progress so far!
Stay connect with love, Adolfo