DAY 38 Sober: My American Dream

Hello friends, today is day 38 sober. I took a 3hr Mid-day nap and it felt so good! A well-rested and Sober mind is a great foundation for a writing session, also some tunes. I am sitting in a coffee shop in Downtown LA its such a beautiful city.  A Million dreams come true here also there is a lot of pain in this city. I feel everybody moves to LA because they want something better for their life.  People that I have met out here are all passionate and chasing the American Dream whatever that means to them. In Los Angeles there can be so much distraction that can hinder your talent and can blind you from that long-term goal. I need to focus, focus on my American Dream. My American Dream is very simple, A comfortable living, staying Sober, writing novels and creating film. Spending most of my time with my kids and partner. That’s what I strive for! Now that my long-term goal is set up I need to create short-term goals that can help me reach my long-term goal. Of course sobriety is number one. Second write, write, write, write, and write. Writing is muscle I have to workout on a daily basis so it can become strong.  I can’t really afford to skip a day. I skipped so much already. I can’t let the fat build up around my muscle fat being hardships, fear, other opinions, and my own insecurity, My Alcohol-ISM. I want 99.9% of writing muscle and .01% of that other crap! I love writing dark family complex stories. It comes naturally. I am obsessed with foreign and independent film, it’s a vice I will never give up. 

 

The lover and children would be a direct result from my positive thinking and creating. I can’t go looking for love I just have to be able to be open and see it when the universe brings it into existence. Even though I just out of a 3 year, I am a huge fan of love and such a hopeless romantic (as I sit in PJS in downtown LA) that’s ok I want someone to love me in PJS! I have always been a huge fan of French Cinema and that’s how I can explain the kind of love I love! You should check out French cinema it will blow your mind. My partner does not have to be French I enjoy all kinds of men. The connection is what I am attractive too, a great smile, a great laugh, who is a fan of art, and who is smart. I love learning and being taught also I would love someone who is evolving and growing also someone who has a bit of a past, gives them character! That’s how I feel at the moment; tomorrow I might want the complete opposite! And that’s ok. I am Hispanic so family really important. I do not need to reproduce my DNA; I am ok with loving a loveless child. I am not opposed to having my own. I would love a few kids. Give them a great childhood so I can destroy the family pattern and create a new way of thinking and traditions. I Never grew up with any traditions. The holidays would be amazing.

 

So that’s my American Dream. What’s so amazing is that its possible, does not matter where you are at today! Or the roads you have walked. Set up some short-term goals to get you there and work on them; do not let anything distract you including that voice that’s in your head! Not only knowing that but also understanding how that voice plays a current role in your life today once you do that then self-awareness begins than connecting that to your heart creates Freedom! And with freedom comes great possibility!  Sober is the New Black!  

Side note: I am so in love with California Dreamin by the Mamas & The Papas! I will be playing this record with my kids as we dance around the kitchen with are rose-colored glasses! 

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo   

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DAY 38 Sober: August: Osage County

Hello friends today is day 38 sober and I am back to the grind from an amazing weekend. I am excited for my Three-day weekend coming up. A sober 4 of July!!! Some friends would like to BBQ, which sounds amazing, but another option is do a mini road trip. I’ve wanted to travel to an obscure town in CA, get a room and spend the weekend in an unknown town. The fourth of July is the perfect weekend to do so. I want to start shooting short films; I already have a few ideas in mind, I need to put them down on paper. I would also love to start shooting a documentary chronicling my struggle to stay sober from booze, past and ego.  Sober is the New Black will be a great documentary but I would need to start saving for a 5d canon camera which is a few grand there is also a cheaper option which is the 7d canon. So I can take my mini trip or start saving for my camera?  I probably can wait for the trip. 

Film has always been a passion of mine and has saved me from a profoundly misfortunate childhood. As a child it was my escape from reality and still kind of is. So I try and watch a film a day. Yesterday I watch a film called August: Osage County it was remarkable film with such complex characters. The writing was phenomenal, it inspired me to continue to work on my nonfiction, and I am obsessed with complex characters. The cast was out of this world. Without giving too much away Meryl Streep plays Violet Weston she is a mom that’s an Addict. Her three daughters Barbara Weston played by Julia Roberts, Ivy Weston played by Julianne Nicholson, and Karen Weston played by Juliette Lewis c have to head back home for a not so good reason. Each character has conflict with each other and has to heal and evolve. A perfect film for date or date with yourself!

 

 

Today is day 38 sober and I am so grateful for every Second of sobriety. This journey so far has brought me closer to my true self and has fueled my passion that has been buried by Alcohol-ism. Sober is the New Black for me and its so sweet!

 

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo