DAY 138 Sober: Advocate for Sobriety

Hello friends today is day 138 sober. Work has been hectic but I am still finding time to write and heal. The longer I am sober the easier it is to stay sober. Somebody once told me its easier staying sober than trying to get sober and I do believe that. My life is golden and blissful, and each moment that I am breathing I am so grateful. I don’t miss that drunken numbing state. I love feeling life even if it hurts a bit or at times annoying it can get but I am feeling and that means I am alive.

 

 I am finding passion for things I never knew I was capable of doing or enjoy doing. No other habits have surfaced, my coffee intake have gone up a bit but not to extreme. I find myself constantly smiling and looking in people eyes. Trying to see past their scars and trying to see them only in the light of understanding and compassion. I do tune out people who have aggressive opinions about my blog. I can’t waste my healing energy on people who are committed to not understanding me. I understand that being Anonymous is very important but I don’t mind letting people know I am an addict because I want people to know its ok to be an addict, it doesn’t define me and I am capable of having a great life, and just because someone is an addict doesn’t mean that they are a bad person or selfish, the disorder is but the person is not. I see myself more as an advocate for Sobriety. Sober for me, is the best thing I have ever worn and goes with every part of my life.

 

 My life has change in so many ways, people that I love are back in my life. The biggest change is how I see myself. I have this deep love for me and I want to be a better person everyday. It takes work but the work turns into getting know the real me that has been hidden. It really cool getting to see me grow and let go of my past. Being aware of the mind disorder has helped me stay sober. The voice in my head is tuning out and a new voice of love in coming on.

 

When I sit still in moments, it feels like a dream. I think of were I’m today and where I been and I cant help tear up due to gratefulness. It doesn’t matter how low of a bottom you are in, there will be climb that might take time but once you come over on the other side life will be nothing but bliss. Sober is the new Black.

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo Vasquez

 

 

I love Sara Bareilles, this song is perfect. Brave i will be till the end

 

DAY 112 Sober: Demi Lovato

Hello friends today is Day 112 sober, I’ve really busy writing lately. Writing takes up most of my days, anywhere from 6hrs and up. I used to spend that much time in a bar but I am no longer in that prison. I found a new love in coffee shop bliss. The surroundings are A lot nicer and it doesn’t smell like drunken vomit. I am inspired by natural light so open space with a lot of green is a perfect place. I know some people could be turn off by me counting days, but the reason for it is so I can look back and see my growth. It’s like an online journal and maybe someone who might be struggling at day36 can Google and maybe my post can show them I am there with them in that moment so they don’t feel alone and also maybe I can remind someone with more days then me what day 78 was like. Also if I need a reminder on how life was in the past I can look back and see my progress. Like I said I can’t waste energy on people who committed to not understanding my sobriety or me. I only hope to only inspire others who might be suffering to find a program that works for them and to heal from within but not just heal but become great in life and live your dreams. When you are healing within it flows into actions and how your treat others without opinions and judgments.

 

I know what works to keep me sober might not work for everyone and that’s ok. Aggressive opinions on how I stay sober can hurt me a bit, I know some are out of concern but its working and I am sober and not craving. My spiritual healing is the core. The steps are the foundation. Yes of course AA helps but what’s more important for me is outside those four walls and the actions I take on my day-to-day basis. I may not always go into detail about what step I am on or commitments or sponsorship. I might in the future but I write in the moment, these post are not written in advance. I don’t even have an idea in my head until my fingers hit the keyboard. Than after the title is made. I write in the moment for the moment.

 

 

I have always been an open book and share every detail of my life. If anyone has any question I am open to them and will always answer the best I can. I am a huge fan of people in recovery speaking up about addiction. People have an idea that just because you are sober you can’t have fun but that’s far from wrong. Artists celebrate recreational drug use in music and TV; I think its wrong and also I think there should be more clear minded alternatives for young people. Being sober is the best thing I have ever put on, its fits like a black dress it works in every aspect of my life. It’s an amazing life and very cool. It’s a great state of mind and there should be more options for people in there 20’s who do not feel pressure to heavily drink and do drugs on a sat night, have a cup of coffee and write, go dancing sober, instead of picking up a drink, pick up a paint brush, create a hobby, create art. Find you. Now that I am leaving my twenties, I realize it was a drunken blur and I just want kids to know there are other options; I could have had 10 books publish already with the amount of money and time spent on partying. I am so grateful for people who speak up about addiction celebs and non. I admire Demi Lovato, she is one of us. She is in recovery and her music is all about empowering others who suffer from addiction to know anything is possible once you seek help and heal and do the work. Sober is the new Black.

 

DEMI LOVATO STORY, SO BRAVE AND INSPIRING.

http://youtu.be/KkpD8H5oLBg

 

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo Vasquez