DAY 25 SOBER: The Universe

Hello friends, today is Day 25 sober and I am so excited for my 30 days coming up. Not sure how to celebrate this coming moment but I am sure it will be amazing! I’d learn so much about myself, Alcoholism and how my mind works. I’ve been saying a lot of positive affirmations to myself through out the day and in the moments when the ISM (inside self and mind) of the Alcoholism comes out and tells me horrible things that then creates sad feelings. There is an app I will be downloading that wakes you up with positive affirmations kind of like and an alarm. 

 

Yesterday I spent most of my day at home depot, which is a Home Improvement store. I had to put up shelving; it was a first for me. I knew nothing about studs etc. I did not even own a drill, hammer, or stud finder. I was in a bit of annoyed mood my apartment was a mess For the past two day and I had hired to guys that didn’t understand how to do shelving. So I was already on the verge of tears when I realize I forgot my phone at Home Depot but my place was a mess so I was not 100 percent sure. My Alcoholism came out right away thinking the person I hired stole my phone but I had to stay calm and remind myself that if I didn’t find it I will be ok and I just need to stay sober and the rest will work out. My cell has a wallet case that had my Driver license, credit cards and a bus pass that was 75 bucks.

 

So the worker Luis told me I needed another item from home depot and that’s when I realized it was missing.  So I hurried to the store when I got there I asked the cashier, looked down the Aisle and still no phone.  I felt tears already but I told myself its ok to cry and grief for a bit but to surrender it to the universe and I’ll be ok. So I went to customer service to leave my name and number and my phone was waiting there! Once I accepted it and release it to the universe, the universe was ready to return what I was asking for. Not only did I get my phone back I was able to get the shelving up without the help of the hired work, that was a two day process. The universe is waiting for us to accept and release! I am so grateful I am in a space of clarity, living my truth, accepting, being-self aware and it will only stay this way if I continue to stay sober!

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo

  

DAY 24 Sober: Is Good or Bad Real?

Hello friends its day 24 sober and I am back to the grind. I had such an amazing time back home, lots of food, love and great talks. My stepmother, aunt and myself stayed up late one night and had a necessary talk, I needed some clarity in the love part of my life and it came.  I heard exactly what I needed to move on, it will not be  easy but it will get easier and today was easier than yesterday. My family has been so supportive when it comes to my sobriety. I did not get any cravings for booze but there is a Mexican drink that’s called michelada or chavela that is really good. Its not really the beer that craved it was all the spices and tomato juice they put in. Not sure if they can make a virgin one but that has been the only craving but it passed with time. I’ve read that Alcoholism well the ISM can show up in different areas in your life, people can switch addictions to smoking, coffee and sex. So I have to watch my mind because I am very capable of all three. 

 

My Stepmother and aunts are very open-minded; self aware and positive mind watchers. We had a few discussions on if there is such thing as good and bad in life. Sometimes what we think is good for us is actually bad and sometimes what we think is bad for us is a great lesson.  I’m starting to believe the universe knows exactly what you need in your life so it gives you experiences not good nor bad just experiences so you can reach your full potential For example keying someone car wasn’t a bad thing because it thought me so much about myself and it brought me self awareness with my issues.  A week after that incident my car was keyed so I do believe in Karma whatever energy you put out you will get of good nor bad.   The universe already knows what I need for me to reach my full potential I just have to see the signs and be aware be in tune with what the

 

 

What if a lady is being abuse by her husband and one day she leaves then because going through all that she opens up this shelter that saves 1000 of woman from there abuser? So was going through that relationship a really bad or was it suppose to happen so she can save 1000 of lives. This are just thoughts in my head, just trying to figure out. Another example is two sisters living with an alcoholic mother who beats them both. One grows up to become successful doctor and one becomes a horrible addict. And if you asked them “ what shaped your life into what it is today?” and they answer their mother. So was growing up with their mother a good thing or bad thing?

 Is it how we see the world; with are mind?  that there is no bad nor good just how we see the situation? I leave it at that.

I am grateful for being sober and for all of you! Thank you so much

Stay connect with love, Adolfo

 

 

DAY 22 Sober: Heading back to LA

Hello friends its day 22 sober and I am having a great day.  The past couple of days have been amazing. It was nice being back home sober. I wish I had more time to see all my loved ones. I did not get a chance to see my mom but I did get to talk to her,  She seems in a good place, which brought me some comfort! I did get a little sad yesterday morning; I think I was just missing my apartment and routine. I did start having Alcoholism thoughts that consist of some negative thoughts, I thought people were disappointed in me for all the chaos I caused but my mind was trying to tell me a false story but I caught it before in ruin my day. Alcoholism doesn’t care how amazing the surroundings are around you it will always try and come out so I can hit that bottle again but I am so happy that I can now catch it before it gets to that point. I just change the thought process. 

 

I been wanting to get a Remembrance tattoo for my love Magnolia but the artist I use is out here. I knew this trip would be the perfect time. Magnolia is with me all the time, I feel her and see her in my dreams. It came out perfect. I will be getting some other tattoos soon including a Sober is the new black.  This trip has been filled with laughter, great talks and some amazing food.  I made some great moments that will eventually over shadow the drunken moments. I see people around me differently, ever person that I meet I want to connect with them and know their story. I want to love everyone that comes into contact with me. My eyes, heart and my eyes are clear at the moment. I just have to stay sober and focus on my long-term goals. My mind is a beautiful thing I just cant let it become my enemy again. In 8 days ill be 30 days and I can’t believe it! 

 

I’m leaving with peace in my heart for my father and mother. When I get back home I will be eating better, still focusing on staying sober, building on new relationships and old ones, write, write, write, love, love and love! This trip is amazing but I am excited to get back to LA and hit up my coffee shops. Thank you Universe for this amazing trip I am so Grateful for this trip.

 

Stay connect with love, Adolfo

My Trip

My Trip